-Well... I suck. Oh I might as well type that in the title bar real quick since it seems to fit the occasion so nicely...
-There. Now I dont have to worry about a title.
-Now to the reasons for this.
-Numbah 1. My brain is retarted! It wont let me sleep. Less than 5 hours a night for the past 4 days. Its been giving me bad driving directions and complicating simple thoughts. Its been plastering 1 thing on my mind continuously against my will! (Ill give you one guess...) It also makes me second guess things alot. It makes me randomly jealous and I read too far into things that are just stupid for me to go into. Im fed up with my brain in general. Tradesies anyone?
-Numbah 2. Ive been feeling very lonely lately...
-Completely(possibly) unrelated: My extended family will be arriving any minute now. yaaay. (<-sarcasm... /cry) So Im going to be incognito as much as possible the next week. I dont want them to see me at all. Im aiming for 100% avoidance. Might be difficult considering I have 3 dollars to get me through to friday and im going to need food and a place to sleep(notsleep). This is going to be the week from hell if Im not able to sleep soon.
-Numbah 3. I really love music, but sometimes I absolutely hate that I love it so much. It makes me unable to enjoy what everyone sans me enjoys. I cant get thrills from most rock music. I head bang to rhythms with odd timesignatures. I am teh lame. Most people listen to bands noones ever heard of because they derive some sort of pleasure from being elitist morons. I loathe this. Its like a disease with no cure. I cant enjoy breaking benjamin, or other such rock bands and I have a really hard time enjoying skillet(Honestly you have no idea how bad I want to love them). It absolutely erks me to death that I cant just listen and bob my head and be happy. nope. i gotta be lame and listen to music that most people cant get through a single song because somehow, my ears find that enjoyable.
-The hardest part of the above is that I cant blame anyone. Who do you blame for your taste in things? God? Yourself? Your parents? Deffinately not parents... I guess me then. Or half God, half me. I dont really know... I guess God could have made me a country music nut or something...
-That feels good to get off my chest.
-Fingers crossed for sleep. Ive been psyching myself up for sleep and something else all day. 'Something else' didnt happen so lets see how sleep goes.
-Me
AWWW *hug* That sounds awful! ......what was the something else?
ReplyDeleteYour taste in music is strange and sometimes it does drive me up the wall, but it makes you Jacob. Its ok if you don't like Skillet, i'll live. There are other bands everyone can agree on! Passion pit and Relient k to name a few. As for your brain i really think its stress thats keeping you awake. Try and unwind and do something to derail your one track mind. (as im writing this i see how stupid that sounds....) Im here if you want to talk. or not talk. whichever. hope you get some sleep!!!