6 Month Anniversary Impromptu Poetry

Yay 6 months! In honour of our anniversary, I will write a completely impromptu, off the top of my head, poem without deleting anything once it has been typed.

Here goes! 

*cough* Ahem!

My girlfriend is off the hizzah!

I love her lots.

Her name is Alyssa,

and her socks have spots.

(Ok that one was slightly less then impromptu...)

We go to the movies

We drive in her car

I could go for a smoothy

rawr rawr rawr

(Ohhhhh Yeaaaahhhhh)

All over town

They see us comin

We never have frowns

Shes a heck of a woman.

(Hahahaha legit!)

Thank you.

Alyssa, its been the greatest six months ever and im looking forward to having more time to spend along side you! <3

-Me

Second Pillar

...

And the second pillar has fallen today. Well last night really.

I guess people break up all the time. Its not like breaking up is a bad thing or whatever. I mean who wants to be stuck with the wrong person for more time than you have to be. And life moves on. People break up. Even the ones you swear are so good together. That scares me a little but yeah thats the cold hard reality of it.

Jennill

Jenniphil.

No wait... Philiffer...

Good luck to you both and stuff.

On the other hand, Its refreshing to see people make wise and healthy relationship choices for a change! I admire phils bravery and honesty in this and jenns understanding and willingness to work things out. I love both of you and wish you the best

Sincerely, Me

This song describes my night

I was in the front seat, shaking it out
And I was asking if you felt all right
I never want to hear the truth
I want to hear your voice, it sounded fine

I could feel my heartbeat taking me down
And for the moment, I would sleep all right
Veiny with a selfish fear
To keep me up another restless night

And I realized then you were perfect
With my teeth ripping out of my head
And it looked like a painting I once knew
Back when my thoughts were not the least intact

 

And I felt loved again

-Manchester Orchestra

warning. apathetic mode has been activated.

Am I happy?

In a word

Yes

Am I ready?

In two words

Absolutely not

how do you navigate in the dark?...

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well tonight I was sort of insulted. like ouch. she went there. it hurt. bandaid?

she knows i dont want to do this but i will. ive already ran faster than the speeding bullet and leapt the tall building in a single bound. but this is rough. wow. im such a dork for real. what is this post? what the heck...am i lamenting or something? hahaha. more like procrastinating and hoping i can switch over to matt... i know it wont be that bad if shes there but without her in that specific scene my mind explodes. so there. it adds familiarity to the unknown. thats all. my ears are ringing. i have work tomorrow. im broke. i have to drop stuff off at bcc again. im tired. i cant sleep. my left pinky finger just went numb. my phone says i have a 2 and a half hour sleep debt that i am unable to pay if i wanted to. and i lack the ambition to press the shift key. but guess what? im gonna sleep tonight. im gonna get up tomorrow. my ears wont be ringing. my pinky wont be numb. i will drop stuff off at bccfor the freaking millionth time. i will use the shift key. i will work my fingers to the freaking bone and earn money so i wont be broke. i will freaking call this guy and schedule a freaking meeting and everybody will be freaking happy again peaches n gravy.

peaches n gravy

-me

Ehry Pottah - Sorcerers Stone.

Well im reading the first harry potter book entitled

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone

So yeah its pretty freakin great actually. Im pleasantly surprised. So here we go. Im officialy challenging myself to read all the harry potter books. All of em. My goal is to be done by the release of the final movie which is in Feb I think. Its a tough goal but hey, somebodies gotta do it, right?

I started this one 3 days ago and im already half way through. Thats a good sign! So Im on chapter 10. Im noticing that alot of great stuff in the books is totally absent from the movies and thats kindof a let down because its so awesome in the books and could be put in the movies with a little extra effort but whatevs...

In the books they overly emphasize the celebriality of harry and the thing with not saying voldermort. Like harry says it once and Ron flips out which puts it in perspective a bit better than the movies did.

Snapes. Holy. Freakin. Crap. Snapes is a beast in this book. Knowing what I already know from the movies, it only puts it in better perspective some of things Snapes does in the books. I think hes becoming my favorite character already. Im so excited to see what happens with him in the deathly hallows part2.

So there we go. Im about to read some more and ill keep the blag updated on my progress periodically under the tag:

Ehry Pottah

Ciou Knives

-Me

Wavves wisdom

Hellooooooooooooooooooooooooo

(hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooo)

(helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooo)

......

*cricket*

*cricket*

:(

Hey someone tell me if it sounds like hes saying

-Bill Clinton in the roof-

-Its Bill Clinton hoo dah woops- 

I freakin love this song so much right now! If your reading this, I hereby charge you with fear of hellfire, guilt, condemnation, and damnation, if you dont make a blog post about something you enjoy. right now. 

My aaaaaalieeeeeeeeeeen hes still missiiiiiiiiiin! hes still missssiiiiin! My braaaaaiiiiiiin is nuuuuumb and I cant hear yooouuuuuuuu any clearerrrrrrrrrrrr Its bill clinton in da rooooof its bill clinton hoooodahwooooooops

ahhhh music! yay :) 

This year for thanksgiving (oh shutup. I gotta do at least a little reflecting...(yes im arguing with my own brain...(Thats low...)yeah)shutup brain!).... Im thankful for great music, a wonderful girlfriend, crazy friends and my amazing family who never ceases to amaze me. If your reading this and you fit into the above category, consider yourself thanked :) and if your not... then. um... your not thanked....i guess.

Im just havin fuuuuuuun yeah I just wanna have fuuuuuuuun!!!! With youuuuu-uuuu-uuuu-uuuuuu-eeeee-uuuuu with youuuuuuu-uuuuuuu-uuuu-uuuuuu-eeeeeee-uuuuuu!!!!

-Me

aka The guy who types out lyrics with as much vocal nuance as possible...

Dear, Alyssa...

-Your hand will always be in my hand-

-and your heart will always be in my heart-

Love,

-Me

Grizzly Bear - Two Weeks

 

Dear God. Thank you for grizzly bear and their ability to write songs that instantly make my day 100 times better. Amen.

Are we growing up, or just going down?

Theres a drug in the thermostat to warm the room up

and another around to help me bend your trust 

Got a sunset in my veins

and I would have to take a pill to make this town seem ok

-Falloutboy

Insomnia rant...-sigh-

Well the gf is sick and i would probably die of boredom and loneliness if it werent for dan... And girls... Yeah the band 'girls' just put out a reaaaally great new album of cheesy oldy sounding love songs that sound soooo great! Opening track sounds like a 50s diner dance number complete with the cast of grease! Its pretty intense. Also KiD CuDi has a new album out called... get this. ready?

Mr Rager

Wooooow thats a terrible name for an album. What is that like mr roger? anyway. Its super emo. Its the linkin park of rap music. I havent listened to it all the way through yet but im diggin the song 'maniac' if not just for the sample of one of my fav girl singer/songwritters 'St Vincent'. It gets points off for having mary j blidge in 2 different songs. ew. 

Also remind me to get the new Radio Dept album... And the new deerhunter album... Im reluctant to get them and have no motivation to do so because both of thier last albums were so amazing and I dont want to be dissapointed... Specially radio dept. Their last album is one of my favorite albums ever with 'heavens on fire' and 'domestic scene'...

If your wondering, when I cant sleep, I go to music. Thats why I know a trillion and one bands and have very picky taste in music. Insomnia rears up every once in a while and bam! my music library triples lol... i hate insomnia.... Its like 4 in the freakin morning... Im tired but my brain is like camptown freakin races right now. I cant seem to get my brain to relax. Im hoping that by typing this up, itll empty out my brain so i can sleep. Im praying for you alyssa! I hope you get better soon so we can hang out! Me, henry, lily and kila miss you!!! They didnt have a prayer request thing tonight since we did a party but I told a few people you were sick so you would get prayed for by more people! More people praying is supposed to make you better faster I think... Im not sure... Maybe not. Depends on the people praying maybe? Oh wait! Depends on God actually. Yep. Anyways! I was wanting to know if you wanted me to drive over my jacket so you can keep warm! :) Im also well aware of the fact that I will never get it back but I can always borrow one of jinjes or something. I dont think your parents will care if you are wearing a jacket twice as big as you lol so let me know tomorrow when you wake up and I will totally drive it over! I got it washed and dryed and im gonna wear it tomorrow to smell it up :) Ok goodnight now. And if you read that, and your name isnt alyssa baker, you have waaaaay too much free time. Alyssa gets special treatment because she is sick and sick people have free time. Like phil when he watched all 6 seasons of lost lol wow i gotta stop typing...

-Me

Good news!

Well im happy :)

To those of you who read this and then scroll down to the post below this about me not being happy, I am sorry...

Anyways, Im on my bed listening to a super hyper drum'n'bass song by DJ Zinc, I got to chill with the fam today and oh yeah, I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND!

Whats that? You cant hear me? 1 sec...

... I know my megaphone is around here somewhere... Here it is!

I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND!

Yep! Its legit check it out!

 Heck. Yes.  :)

Thank you alyssa baker! You are the best girlfriend ever!

-Me

uuugh

Im not doing so well at the moment. I feel weird.

You know like when you have to write something or draw something or play something, but you just cant? You have ideas and even motivation but for some reason you just cant seem to do it...

Thats what im feeling right now.

I feel like next time I sit down alone in the studio, pure magic will flow out. Like a sink full of water is overflowing and you just have to yank the plug to get things moving... Unfortunately I cant do that right now. I havent written anything usable in a looooong time and its killing me slowly...

Heres what I need to do soon. Step one, get a drum set and get it setup in the studio. Step two, carry over all my guitar stuff into the studio. Step three, lock myself in there for a week.

Im serious as bloody death right now. Im mulling over taking a vacation week or something so I can do this.

-sigh- Me

Twitter

@Perilous_loop

to quote incubus(which is something i do sparingly...)

dont ask. dont tell. follow(me on twitter).

Ke$ha 3 times and G6 4 times??? Whaaa?

And so it seems that life for most everyone is uneventfull, and I still have an amazing ability to start a sentence with a conjunction and pull it off quite well :)

Captains log stardate 9522.6: Radio silence on the blagosphere week number two. Im starting to get more desperate. More cynical. More jaded. every.... passing....hour... Its almost as if the lack of clear blag communication has caused the very earth itself to start freezing!!! The fault lies with none other than the Klingons! Ive never trusted klingon, and I never will. I will never forgive them for the death of my boy... (kirk anyone?)

*cricket*

that was lame. anyways-

Today was amazing. Actually it was more than amazing. There isnt a good enough word for it. We celebrated the birthday of my favorite girl alyssa by chillin at waterford. We did red lobster for lunch which was super good, then watched paranormal activity 2 at regal cinema. I had such a good time! Im noticing a strong trend in really liking sundays. I hope it continues.

random quote:

"Mother of pearl beans, mother of pearl!!!!!!" -Louis Stevens on Even Stevens

Ok byebye

-Me

Zzzzt! A rappa bug zappa...

Well this is it. Im signing up for college for the....5th time??? I cant remember...

My cousin Julia, the 'decidedly indecisive' one as I call her, just made her choice on college and is attending spring classes next year at the 'Le Cordon Bleu'. So if she can do it, I can do it right? Granted, its not what I really want to do or anything. Its more of a stepping stone.... In a loooong trail of stepping stones hovering over the grand canyon...

Yeah im thrilled... really... I do, however, like the prospect of not doing nothing. I mean I have a job, which is more than most people, but its a sucky lousy barely-get-your-bills-payed job. I want moneys. They say money doesnt mean happiness, but I think sometimes it does.... Money means stability. Stability means less stress which is sortof like happiness right? Also financial stability means making 'it' official, which is -immeeeeensly- important to me right now despite my obvious lack of motivation to move forward... (heart-on-sleeve moment here...)

So there you have it. Ive filled out all the paperwork for bcc. Ill be taking some classes on web design and web media. Hopefully after that, Ill pickup 2 or 3 or however many websites and make some cash. The thing about websites, is they require monthly payments to keep running...

...Epic evil grin*...

Which in turn, means monthly payments to moi! So its like monthly payments of hefty amounts comming in from 3 or 4 sources. It could work out quite well for me :)

*fingers crossed*

So here we are in November which incidently reminds of the Gorillaz song

'Something has started today 
Where did it go? Why you want it to be?
Well you know November has come
And it's gone away'

Im in no mood for november to stay. Im at a weird point where im like wanting to skip ahead in life to get to the good stuff. God is teaching me to stop wanting to skip ahead and keep my head out of the clouds. Be content with my current level of happiness, and stop trying to cheat on His plans for me. Its all too easy(darth vader quote!) to steal His plan for you early, but it takes focus and determination to have that patience to stake it out. In the long run, you will be happier. Well, at least thats what I hear... Just focus on the now. God will focus on the later. After all, the now is pretty amazing right?

-Me

Its Raining in Vancouver

 

    -We'll leave tonight and we'll leave together-

-I'll say what airline and you'll say whatever-

        -Leave all our friends back home-

 -Cause I'm in love with you tonight-

-Me

Bucketlist

my bucketlist ish...

http://www.43things.com/person/Inysy

Bullets everywhere!

• Anxious about tonight.
• God works in freaking mysterious ways. He has a way of putting things in your head when you dont want them there. And when you ignore him, he slaps you via your friends.
• coheed and cambria rock
• i dont like the word rock anymore unless partaining to geological stuff.
• nobody posts blogs anymore :(
• bullet added for space
• another bullet added for space
• my phone has been goin off the hook today with people
• it feels good to have a new friend in my life.
• Phil is dark red.
• Time consumer is coheeds best song imo
• imo is stupid... what a lame abbrev...
• lol
• mariaaaaa myyyyy staaaaaar ma-athew goodni-i-ight
• its hard to keep your mind off something when you are consciously aware that whatever your doing is just keeping your mind off something else...
• Frik!!!!
• (Eeeeeh Shabutie!)(<---Thats for Jon...Whoooshaw freaky-zeekie.)
• Ergh,..,.,ejlsheufhsuehuhkshkehfkhskjdhkjhkbvxbcvkjsdhkfshdkfhskhjisoosehfioshjf
• How do you win the lottery without ever buying a ticket?....
• Im gonna get on netflix and watch the office or something...

With Fingers Crossed, and our hearts on our sleeves, we press onward.

-Me

My drive home prayer tonight

Well...You see....

Theres this girl I like. I mean reaaaaally like. like rawrrawr ♥♥♥... Shes something else, let me tell you.

Shes smart.

Beautiful.

Clever.

Funny.

Aggressive... In an adorable way.

Not to plagiarize or anything, but...

I absolutely love her when she smiles.

But somehow I bet you already knew all of this God.

Thank you. You've really outdone yourself with her.

Amen. 

-Me

Beautiful lyrics for a beautiful night

What a beautiful face I have found in this place that is circling all around the sun. What a beautiful scene that could flash on a screen in the blink of an eye and be gone from me. Soft and sweet. Let me hold it close and keep it here with me

And one day we will die and our ashes will fly from the aeroplane over the sea. But for now we are young, let us play in the sun and count every beautiful thing we can see. Love to be. In the arms of all im keeping here with me

-Jeff Mangum

The Story of Jealousy

Jealousy...

...is a brutal murderer, taking no hostages. Slaughtering the masses with his sharp sword and arriving when you least expect him. He can easily guide the most sane to their knees and the most wealthy to their graves. His victims know him as many names. Hell. Insanity. Envy. Shakespeare reffered to him as the Green-eyed Monster. He wears many, many masks and costumes. If you dont know what he looks like, you wont see him comming til its too late.

Who is he?

He was born second to his twin sister Love. They were a team at first. Working together and building each other. He learned many things from his older sister, such as how to disguise himself as another feeling, and how to wait til an opportune time to attack. As time went on, Jealousy became more destructive, more villianous. Now, he has become a rutheless vigilanty, picking out his next victim based on where he finds his sisters handywork.

How do you fight an opponent such as this?

Certainty?...

Trust?...

Some say that to Jealousy, nothing is more frightful than laughter.

-Me

There may or may not be hidden links in this post...

Hi there blagosphere. I have come to 2 very important realizations a minute ago

1 - I havent typed anything objectable in quite some time. Everything I have typed has been very pertinent to me, and maybe one to three other people.

2 - I dont care. This is after all my blag am I right? Must I type things relavent to anyone but myself? Nope. Ok then. Thats taken care of...

On to more pressing matters like me and alyssa bakers grand (re)watching of LOST! Its turning out super awesome. She is at least halfway addicted already with more addiction to follow! Everything is going according to plan!!! bweeehhahahaha!... 12 episodes in to the first season. epic!

...What else...

Theres these weekend plans which are going to be spectacularly amazing despite the fact that we dont really have much of anything at all planned. Nothing quite like freestyling a weekend. Also theres this formal progressive dinner saturday night! Im wearing a tuxedo.

And OH YEAH! Dave moved into my house, and ill most likely be moving out at the end of a week or two when I get the cashmoney...

Welp...Thats it. byebye.

-Me

Silence is not golden...

*cricket cricket*

...

Chapter XX

fly me out the window

somewhere far away

news on the radio

happy birthday

happy birthday

happy birthday

Well here it is folks. The big 20. Remember when you first hit 10? The double digits? This is like double that... Holy cow, when did I become a man. Wasnt I a child yesterday who was goin to chuckycheese for a field trip with the other kids? Or that awkward teenager trying to work up the nerve to ask out a girl? HOLY CRAP! IM NOT A TEENAGER! woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........

You just witnessed an epiphany. That just hit me while typing that... I am no longer a teenager. What the heck does that mean? Am I supposed to carry myself differently? I dont feel any older... ugh now im confused. It feels like this a good time to make life changes. But, what am I supposed to change? I always remember being younger and thinking to myself how things would be different when your older. Like you almost expect your mindset to be different. When it actually comes, you find out that your mindset is the exact same. Nothing changed, really. Your the same person, but slightly older.

But anyway. I am super happy! really I am! :)  Im excited to see what this year brings me for sure. Despite my bad rapport with birthdays($$$Cant think about that now. Supposed to be happy$$$), im determined that this will be the best ever! 

'But not right now, im high as a cloud'

-Me

Untitled Letter

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Im thinking about you and just wanted to tell you how much I

like how you always know what to tell me

or how you hold my arm in the

van with my parents.

Even though its rough sometimes,

you stick with me.

Over the months, I come to realize that

under my arm, you fit nicely.

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:)

-Me

How to: Shorty

Hello!!! Welcome to another great edition of...

Dang!! I would love to start using that, but I have no idea how to use it properly...

Todays word is....----Shorty.

Shorty, or Shortay, Shawtay, is a term of endearment for a girl you like. Be warned, this word is not for the novice! Only advanced raconteurs should attempt a word of this magnitude! When spoken aloud without autotune, one may often feel awkward. If not yelled properly, you will get lots of stares from anyone in your general vicinity. I find, there is a pre-arranged way to use this word that the average person may not know. The key is to yell it, without as much volume as a yell, and with your falsetto, or 'throat' voice. It is a very difficult maneuver and can frequently leave the user in a state of sheer panic after he has realised his grave mistake! Herein lies the common rookie mistake which I, personally, have had many emails regarding. Wait no longer friends, here is the tip! If you know you butchered it and are risking dismemberment by your african-american compadres, all you have to do is this:

Step 1: This is the most important step of all!!! MAKE NO EYE CONTACT! As long as this rule is observed carefully, you have a chance. Quickly in your head, devise on a scale of one to ten, how awefull it was. 1 being T-pain, and 10 being white-nerd-with-squeeky-voice. Take that number, and if you are white, multiply it by 3. Take that number, and for each point, give yourself roughly 5 seconds of no eye contact. If you used a calculator to add up your total, go ahead and just walk away in shame...

Step 2: Square your shoulders. Tilt your head back slightly. Bring the left side of your lips up and puff them out a little bit. I find it helps to envision the superstar Bono. Or even Jim from 'The Office'.

Step 3: If shawty doesnt respond with a calm 'yeah, whatsup?' look(You know the one), Then get the heck out of there as fast as you can...

If you follow these rules, then you(YES YOU!) can be on your way to using yet another difficult american slang. 

Sincerely,

-Me

When noone seems to be listening...

Dear reader,

What do you do, when all your possible roads lead to destruction...

When all the cons heavily outweigh the pros...

Post #100. Thats amazing.

More of--- Things that are amazing!!!!

#10 - Your 100th post on your blag. Thats right. This is 100. Its been rough, but enjoyable. Hmm Quite the milestone as far as blagging goes.

#11 - XKCD. More specifically [This one] ... lulz.

#12 - Kelseys Greek Salads. Holy moly. I want one now just thinkin about it... o_o

#13 - Chocolate rain... Chocolates fallin'. On my window. On my car. Chocolate rain. *Gets punched by two angry girls*....

#14 - Getting sudden song inspiration in your mind while doing random things. "Wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy!" That one line just came to me today at work and bam!... nahh its garbage...

#15 - Rawring.

#16 - That moment you realise you miss someone even though you just saw them earlier that day.

#17 - Free pie at village inn without purchasing something! Theres always a few people who dont want the free pie after they eat. Luckily they have good friends who will take that burden and eat the pie... Like me and vinny.

...Which brings me to....

#18 - Eating pie with Vinny. Vinny is a pretty great guy. He works (and possibly lives...) at walmart gathering carts. Generally a cheery fellow, very happy and excited all the time. As long as you havent seen him in a week, hes awesome to eat pie with!

Thats it fo today. nighty-night.

-Me

Weezer - Falling for you

Heres a tiny clip I like alot from the song falling for you off of pinkerton.

But I'm shakin' at your touch
I like you way too much
My baby, I'm afraid I'm falling for you
'n I'd do 'bout anything to get the hell out alive
Or maybe I would rather settle down with you

Holy sweet gd***
You left your cello in the basement
I admired the glowing stars
And tried to play a tune
I can't believe how bad I suck, it's true
What could you possibly see in little ol' 3-chord me?
But I do like you, and you like me too
I'm ready - let's do it, baby!

Myspace and the Elec-shee-on.

Im on my bed listening to my brother yell out his usual halo strategy calls over his mic. Theres only so much of that I can take so Im now going to get headphones and put on music...

'The Outfield - Play Deep' is now on. Dont laugh at me -_- 80s roooockkk. legit.

So now then. Goin to the doctor tomorrow with this girl I like who shall be unnamed$ :). Im officially signed up for doing awana T&T boys for a half hour between band and class starting. Ill be the one making the kids rap out the old testament books of the bible for extra awana-bucks. Just had a scrubs moment... yeaaaaah. Thats gonna be awesome. 'Your Love' is now on. Greaaaat song. Which reminds me, need to download pinkerton again...

...Ok downloaded. And now listening. Mmmmm Crunchy Fuzz... I wasnt gonna say it but I reaaally like the first track thats titled interestingly enough 'Tired of Sex'. The lyrics arent really that bad surprisingly, its actually him complaining that he screws up all his relationships because of sex... Ok yeah it is a little awkward but the instrumentation is soooo gooood!

Got my myspace page back up. Also for that same girl I like. I havent checked it since the 'dark days'. Its been years and all I had was like 4 messages and 12 notifications. Its a dead zone which is pretty awesome now. I updated my old crappy picture and stuff and scrolled through all her updates for the past few months. So yeah I trolled for a good 30 minutes. Most of my friends havent been on in like 2 years at least. pretty crazy. Wasnt I just logging on myspace like yesterday and talking with matty about making a band or something?!?........dang.

Alas the election is ooooverrrr and J Roger Shealy (REP) was not voted in. Bummer. FINALY!!!!!!!!!!! You have to understand my phone contacts are synchd with facebook pictures, and ontop of that, roger told all his supporters to change their profile pics to this grody "Im Voting for J Roger Shealy" thing. So at least 70% of all my contacts had the same picture for like a month... BUT ITS OVER!!!! ^___________^    <-Most epic smile)

Ok. Im gonna get some sleeeep. byebye.

-Me

I'll need a volunteer. How about you, with the eyes?

What is it with ferraro furniture!?!? Lol...

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:)

(*boxxy rawrawrawr*)

-Me

P.S... not trollin'...

Synesthetes Diary: Projecting and stuff.

Ok so... Synesthesia. I usually ignore it. It isnt a cool thing to me most of the time. But today, I projected. I will now do a quick search on google for an explanation from someone who knows what they are talking about... brb...

Well that was a big waste of time. Ill give it a go: Theres two camps. I consider myself in the 'associator' camp. Its when you know that its there. In my case, I spend time around you, and I know what colour you are in my mind. Its that easy. Now the other camp is projectors. They see colours projected in their actual vision. Grapheme synesthetes see colours over every letter like a rainbow. Now the camps arent mutualy exclusive. Some associators project occasionaly.

Now that you have a vague idea, ill get to mah point. I project every once in a while, ie: blue moon. More like never-ish, actually. Its been a while. I did today though. It surprised the crap out of me! Alyssa was in mid-conversation about spiders, and she was waving her hands around demonstrating what she was saying and it was like WOA! I SAW IT! I was like -Wave your hand a little bit... O_O... It was soooo awesome! Wherever her hand moved, it left this huuge trail of light blue. After I left the car, I noticed I was leaving streaks of gold everywhere so I stared at my hands for a while... Yeah...

I used to project when I was younger. Alot younger. I remember staring at my hands when I couldnt sleep because they left long trails. It usually happens late at night or maybe when im tired. I used to think it happened in times of severe emotional overload like anger/depression because it happened a few times in the 'dark days'$. Bleh... But maybe not, today wasnt particularly emotional for me in comparison to other days this week/month. But who knows, maybe its like 'when the planets align' thing and all the factors have to be there. I know emotion plays a role in it, but to what extent, no idea... Thats about it then. Thats what I know. I went through a phase where I was really into it and tried tests to see if I had any other syns because its rare to have one isolated minor syn without having one of the major (freaking awesome) ones like sound or grapheme. But yeah. Thats it. Thanks Alyssa.

-Me

Tuesday for dummies/Tuesday soup for the soul/Tuesday the walkthrough

Well now, The National, and Owen Pallet, David Bazan, Amberlin, and the Crash Kings are all comming to Orlando within the next month or so. Man-oh-man. Bazan is the singer of Pedro the lion who split to do his own thing. Sounds like a pretty sweet show.

Listening to music is hard now without working headphones. See if you can imagine this: The right ear muff broke off of the band that goes over the head. So I have the band on for the left ear and tucked the right ear into the band to hold it to my head. It falls off every few minutes or if I move suddenly. Is it worth it? Absolutely!

Stuff Ive been listening to recently:

1- Grits. Anything I can find on youtube.

2- Scott Pilgrim vs. The World OST (Sex Bob-omb ftw)

3- The Good Life - Novena on a Nocturn. Currently what im listening to while typing this. Its good stuff.

4- TI - Paper Trails. Yup. Rap yall.

5- Foo Fighters. Anything by them really. Im drinking it all in. Really liking that song 'This is a Call'. Its so raw-garage-band awesomeness.

(WARNING ELABORATE CRITIC GARBAGE AHEAD) I really feel that the artist has used this medium to convey man's inhumanity to man in a world ruled by emotion, where the media imposes thier unrealistic image of perfection upon us in a world that is imperfect, and the blackness towards the end of the piece represents that which surrounds us from a socia-economic standpoint. It's a very surreal landscape that has been painted before us.

(OK YOUR GOOD)Like Janes Addiction-ish. You know?

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(I dont normally advise that my readers stop reading my blog, but stop. Stop reading now. I dont claim responsability for the following)

Now is the part where I clear my head. But instead of deleting it like I do so people dont think im a nut job, im gonna leave the... ummm... 'unclassified' parts of it. Its like stream-of-consciousness right now. For your convenience(and for the lulz), I will now mark the spots where I deleted mass amounts of text with a '$'. Good'ay.

So yep lifes good. Really good. I got this one super awesome thing going with this person that I like and its going great. Im super happy.$ Im not sure whats going to happen in the future, but im excited and thrilled with whats happening now. Also that texting convo was the most amazing thing ever!$ I told myself I wouldnt blog about it til its a legit thing but whatevs. I feel like it, and im pretty sure I know everyone who reads my blog, so there. Its been taken down off facebook for a while now so yeah. So where was I... Oh yeah- Happy! I am that. Alot of that. Everything just keeps comming faster than I can type it. Did you see my facebook status about bread and red lobster? It got jacked by my mom and other people talking about bad breath. How lame. Topic jacking should be made illegal somehow. Like an elite group of trollers who exact righteous judgment on the topic changers. Like Punisher! but an online version... Nevermind thats stupid... Go see Scott Pilgrim if you havent seen it yet. Poor tuna. He was totally a 5th wheel(ish...$) today. Sarah was like -Call up hanah and get her out here! You can flirt a little and getting a date isnt that hard- and stuff and tuna was like -Whatever!!! But really though, its hard for some people. Its the nerves and the 'what ifs' that kill you.$ Then we waited for alyssa to get there and $... And then burger king happened, then dan and sarah ditched us and we dropped off tuna and then me so I could take jinje to blockbuster before 10 but mom and dad were at the party so we couldnt go because I dont have gas in my car. Then I was like -laaaaame- because I left church earlier than I wanted and didnt get to talk much. And now im home having watched a few shows on tv and tried to sleep... sleep... sleep sounds good... Ok thats my thoughts...Now for the editting. This oughta be good... And, wow, there goes half the page. To answer your obvious question, Im not crazy. Just tired, overwound, a bit uncensored, and losing count of my dang sheep. You win a buck-thirty-seven in coins if you read all that up there.

-Me

P.S.- ...zzzzzZZZZZZZ....

RE: God's Best

No, no, no, your explaining it perfectly!

I couldnt quite figure out how to type it but maaaaannnn thats perfect. Its like you know what the right thing to do is, but you cant actually picture it so it doesnt apply until your in the situation and experience it for yourself.

And yeah, I agree. It was really amazing. I dont really have alot complain about so im signing off. Good luck out there tomorrow! Be Vigilant!

-Me

Fall seven times, stand up eight.

per·se·ver·ance  [pur-suh-veer-uhns] 
–noun
1.  steady persistence in a course of action, in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement.

Ok God, I typed it. Somebody out there needs to read this, I just cant figure out who... Good luck whoever you are.

Best regards,

-Me

Thank God...

...For people who will drive medicine to your house because they genuinely care for your wellbeing.

-Me

My View

(Click to Enlarge)

When insomnia reares its ugly head, get creative.

This one is called, 'My View'. Imagine the lines extending into eternity. Never stopping.

If you dont understand it, just keep looking. You might get it.

2day wuz kewl! Ete moar chikin!

Inside this sinking submarine the hull is closing in the water is above my ankles and I still cant get you off of my...

Some songs just click. Pinback does that for me alot. 

Got my application in for fullsail finally. The tour is a week from this sunday. I applied to start October 20th. If all goes well, ill be living with the grandparents in orlando. My head is in the game, and it actually feels good. A tad horrifying, but good. I feel right in the middle between two equal emotions. One is ecstatic that I finally get to leave the craptown of titusville, and the other is like: you love titusville you dummy! Dan pointed out to me the other day that all the most important people in my life will be either living in orlando, or travelling there quite frequently. Which makes me happy and able to deal with things alot better. Crap I wasnt planning on doing a long thing here so goodbye, and if you havent been following boot and sock, I highly recommend it! As bradley would most likely put it: GO READ IT NAOW!!!!!

Byebye

E#%@

-Me

New segment

This kicks off a new thingymajig called

---Things that are Amazing---

#1 - Jenga. Its pretty much the greatest game of all time. You have strategy, wit, and all with such a minimal package. I mean, stacking wooden blocks? Who can think up something like that!? It can single-handedly drum up every possible emotion you posses from anger, to joy, to sadness, to jelousy, to surprise, to fear. Think about it. Now go and play a stack.

#2 - Slurpees. Who would want to drink a normal beverage when you can drink it partially frozen. Its like a drink on steroids! Couple it with a solid metal straw and you have an experience that is indeed, amazing!

#3 - Batman. whaaaaaaaaaaaat!

#4 - Quoting Disney Movies. "Honey!- What? -Wheres my super suit? -Why do you need to know? -Woman! The public is in danger! -My evening is in danger!" or throwing out the occasional Hakuna Matata...

#5 - Finding someones tell. Whether its joshua scratching his cheek, or jen tapping her fingers, finding someones tell is like unlocking their soul! You know what they are thinking despite what they want you to think.

#6 - The Knuckle bump. Imagine, Your chilling with your friends, drinking slurpees, and quoting disney movies when batman walks in. You turn to the nearest friend aaaand >Knuckle bump<>

#7 - Seinfeld. Buh-buh-bum-bumbummmm Puhpuh Tss-Tss Ahhhh!      <---Theme song. Oh yeah.

#8 - Wearing womens socks. Every guy (except joshua apparently...) secretly knows what its like to wear womens socks. Usually it starts as an accidental thing(Oops these arent -my- socks!). Or maybe your out of clean socks, so you borrow your moms. Either way, womens socks are like wearing a cloud. Are you even wearing shoes? Who knows! Your comfy and you really dont care if they might be pink or not...

#9 - Spotting a mullet. Every once in a while in a tiny rural area such as the amazing titusville(%), you spot a man sporting this masterpiece atop his dome. The mullet. Who cares if it makes you a social outcast! You love the mullet! Business in the front, Party in the back. Enjoy the silent laughter and pointing of the pre-teens stalking you at walmart! You deserve it for being so cool! Heres to you mullet man!

Normal people vacuum their rugs...

Ahh todayness... E#%#

You know its monday when...

you go into work and check the schedule and its blank. That in turn prompts your employers to improvise a crap list of work so you can 'appear busy' if the owner comes in. We washed rugs. No, not vacuumed like normal people. We washed them with soap, water, and a scrubby brush in the heat. ughhh -_-;

After work, I went home and ate dinner with the family and got to listen to them tell me what a priviledge it is to have me home for dinner for once. %Thanks guys. %That makes me feel great...

The main redeeming quality of the day is Jenga! Alyssa is the most intense jenga adversary ever!! So much fun! It really made me forget my crap day and let loose.

Amazing! :)

-Me

Wait! dont google it! Chris Martin is the lead singer of coldplay!

E#%%

:)

Saturday night, and I just finished rolling tunas car not too long ago. Luckily, tuna lost the link to my blog so he wont be reading this any time soon. Love you buddy!

Working on my songwritting abilities alot today. Spent like half of yoyoclub on the guitar instead of the yoyo... Yeah but ive got the best hook ever. ever. Now if I only didnt suck at writting lyrics... Wheres shakespear, chris martin, or david bazan when you need them?

-'Hello Chris? Yeah, ive got this song idea im working on, how do I get it to sound amazing?... Gratuitous falsetto you say? 6 consecutive delay pedals? Piano?!? Your a genious!!! kthxbye.'-

Yeah. Thats my imaginary phone conversation with Chris Martin.

Well mom is loud-sighing which is mom-speak for go-to-bed-now-or-you-die.

Nighty-night blogosphere. Sweet dreams. ;)

-Me

A'hoy ye sunday'n mon!

E#^@

Whats up. Had a pretty amazing time today. Church was super good, got to play bass, and pastor said 'Who dat?' during the sermon. Got to eat lunch with dan and the wacky interns and their little johnny johnny whoop, and talking about the fictional grandma and how she likes apples, but not fruit. Good stuff. Then went to hang with Alyssa and Jon which turned into band practice. I sang. Ugh. I dont particularly care for my voice much, but yeah. After that came soccer, slurpees, and the docks, and jamaican pirates (A'ye mon!). The scenery was absolutely amazing. Apparently I fail at finding stars when its not completely dark. Go figure...

So yeah. Back to church and chilling in the parking lot listening to animal collective. It was a pretty eventful day filled with lots of cool stuff. Did I mention that doing a donut in a stick shift is really hard?

So yeah gearin up for a super-monday tomorrow%. Wish me luck.

-Me

The Only Thing I'll Ever Ask of You...

...=)

Im on my bed, listening to an old Tortoise album that came out early nineties, really loving life. So many new experiences. Each one so amazing in its own way. I think my fight-or-flight response has been evoked more this week, than in like, my whole life! haha Its soo awesome! Im savouring each moment as it passes me by, looking forward to the new moments ahead. Cant seem to wipe the smile off my face, as tuna keeps pointing out...

Tonight was an incredible night for me. Spent it at the docks. The greatest place in the tiny blackhole known as titusville. Something about the aroma, the constant wind pressure on your body, and the loud drone of the river is incredibly calming.

Intense, indeed =)

-Me

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaat!

Holy crap I dont even know what to write!!!!!!  :)

55:12

Hey I have 80 posts!

...This is 81.

Hey I have 81 posts!

You Dont want to read this trash-garbage, its bad for your health.

You want to go home and rethink your life.

You also want to go download and listen to the Gregor Samsa album 55:12.

If I were on death row, this would be my last song. For. Real.

I hate that I have to avoid the issues. But what can I do about it? Maddening. Absolutely Maddening.

-Me

Tic-Attack!!!!!!!

So heres one fore all you creative junkies out there! I have a problem of epic proportions.

How many times has this happened to you: Im in an important meeting and I feel the need for a tac. So I pull out my awkward plastic container and put 4 or 5 in my mouth only to realize im being obnoxiously loud and everyones leering at me. A riot ensues as I get 20 hungry hands aimed at me, and I just lost my job...

Therein lies the eternal tic tac conundrum. Ive already scowered the interweb but a common solution sadly does not exist  :/

I need a way to carry tacs without them being obnoxiously loud. I cant have a loud shaking in my pocket everywhere I go can I? Nope. Im trying to get creative but all I got was a tiny zip bag... pill sized objects in a zip bag?... A tad questionable...

Heres my requirements

1 - I need a seal. Freshness is next to Godliness, or something like that. At the minimum, I dont want them loose in my pocket :)

2 - I need stealthyness! Minimal noise is the aim!

3 - Slightly less important - I would rather avoid it looking like im getting 'a fix'. Thats why the zip baggy is discredited :p awkwardness...

4 - Durability. Also not as important, but itll be in my pocket all day so it might need to withstand sharp keys, pocket knifes, etc...

5 - A thumbprint scanner to avoid tac theft? (Think about it. Get back to me.)

Im sure ill figure out something. What if I took SaranWrap and a rubberband... nevermind.

-Me

Lessening

"Its all ending now" - Gregor Samsa

Pedro the Lion - Discretion

Deciding which song to use, I completely got sidetracked off my original thought. Then I returned and remembered what I wanted to do. Stupid facebook...

Now the song. I recommend you hit play, then read on. If you have a strong adversion to amazing music, then maybe you should just sit this one out (And then delete lady gaga off your computer). So heres the jam. Its by the guy behind the band Pedro the Lion. His name, David Bazan.(Buh-Zon if you were wondering.) The song is oppropriately titled 'Discretion' and contains a single 'wordy-dird'.

Heres the lyrics so you can better understand the deal

Having no idea
That his youngest son was dead
The farmer and his sweet young wife
Slept soundly in his bed
In the shadow of the mountain
As the cattle hung their heads

Grazing only feet from
Where the broken body lay
It would lay undiscovered
For another several days
When the farmer would find vultures
At their banquet in the hay

The killer traveled eastbound
In a golden brown sedan
Weighing his most recent
Deviation from the plan
Counting down the hours
Until the sun came up again

Hired to hit the farmer
By the farmer's asshole son
He had not yet decided
Between poison or a gun
When suddenly, he realized
He would not use either one

Now if you cant quite 'get it', its a murder. My take is there are two sons. One being the 'Youngest son' and the other, the 'Asshole son'. The farmer/father, sees vulteres in the field where his cattle are grazing so he runs to check it out. Turns out its his dead 'youngest son'. So either due to the mourning process, or what have you, the farmer alienates his other son who then becomes 'asshole son'. That son feeling betrayed, hires a hit on his dad. The hitman, while figuring out how to kill the farmer, realizes that the best way would be by killing his other son, thus eliminating the rotten son, and emotionaly murdering the father. 

So thats my perception of the story so eloquently told by Mr. Bazan. Maybe my view is slightly less cynical then the others ive come across.... What do you think?

-Me

Gil Grissom Vs. Abbey Road

So I went up with my dad to church to work on some rogue studio equipment. His main input rack started making an audible pop noise which you just cant have when recording. So he sent it to samash and they explained it was a complication between his computer (which is a tad obsolete) and the unit. So back to church, then wam-bam, got it going with no pops. Then we proceeded to spend the next 3 hours schooling me on studio recording software. I cannot get enough of that stuff! Ive played with just auto-tune alone for almost 4 hours one day(Shortay!)

Ive always wanted to have my own proffesional studio, but all the reasons not to kept piling up. You have to have a degree. Legit one. You have to have craploads of cash. 10 grand oughta do it. You have to have a good ear. Which... mine is pretty developed. I think I can handle it. Ive always wanted to go to Fullsail college and study sound hands on. Its just rediculously expensive. Im convinced it would literaly be my dream job. Wait, not literaly.

I considered doing Crime Scene stuff for a while. At the job interview I went to, they asked me where I saw myself in X amount of years. I said working crime scenes, but then I realized I just lied to them, and myself. I see myself doing something closely tied to music. For sure. Absolute Sureness.

Only problem is parents. They think I have a tendancy to switch what I want to do on a somewhat daily basis. I say things like, 'Oh that would be cool to do' and they take it as 'This is my lifes dream, ive always wanted to do this'. They are deffinately getting burnt out on telling me what to do. I mentioned studio work and my dad was cool with it but my mom was like, changing again!?!!? As hard as it is to admit this, the only solid things I wanted to do in my life was owning a studio, and having a radio show. Which the radio show was real big for a while, had a ton of fans online and then they stopped playing me due to changing the station to 100% christian music. Lovely.

Sorry for the long winded thingy there. Ill get this thing called 'life direction' figured out eventually. Progress ftw.

-Me

...:::;;;//|_-_|\\;;;:::...

I have spoke the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

You broke the bonds
You loosed the chains
You carried the cross
And my shame
You know I believe it
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

-U2/Me

30 Rock

I am officially loving 30 Rock. I thought it was gonna be a super crap preppy show but its not. Its pretty great. Kenneth is my hero.  ^-------^

-Me

An Agony in Eight Fits

Well I am now 100% convinced that Lewis Carroll is the greatest writter in all of history. I love his poetry. 'Walrus and the Carpenter' is fantastic, and I just read all of 'The hunting of the Snark'. What an amazing story! I would love to try my hand at absurd poetry but I would probably suck at it. I deffinately urge you to read the above mentioned. What a mind that man must have had to think up these stories. The inspiration for 'Snark' came with the line 'For the Snark was a Boojum, you see.'

I knew not what it meant, then: I know not what it means, now; but I wrote it down: and, sometime afterwards, the rest of the stanza occurred to me, that being its last line: and so by degrees, at odd moments during the next year or two, the rest of the poem pieced itself together, that being its last stanza.

In the midst of the word he was trying to say
In the midst of his laughter and glee
He had softly and suddenly vanished away
For the Snark was a Boojum, you see.

I bet you have no idea what any of that means out of context  but basically, the baker, upon catching a snark... Oh nevermind. Its too absurd to explain out of context. 

-Read it here- legit man.

-Me

Cause I dont need to satisfy tonight

Some songs have that magical ability to describe exactly what your fealing at a point in time. Two songs have done that for me this past few long days. One is 'On Top' by the killers. The other I cant mention for various reasons.

'But now I've found the velvet sun
That shines on me and you' -Killers

In other news, my friends are all becoming happy in thier respective relationships, or lack thereof. It feels like ive been slightly alienated in that process because I am neither in a relationship, or happy. Its odd. I feel odd. Something is afoot. I feel happy for them, but at the same time sadly jealous, like a little kid who got no candy on halloween. Ew Sorry guys that sounds rediculously lame!! Some wednesday this has been huh?

'It's like a cigarette in the mouth
Or a handshake in the doorway
I look at you and smile because I'm fine' -Killers

Ill stop talking and eat some orange tic-tacs now. They take the edge off ;)

Good night.

-Me

You know, if you know

Not getting a post on todays events. No-sir-ee. You had to be there. Words are just not cutting it.

-Me

The best kept secret is the truth

Where once happy and optimistic

Dies a tragic bloody death

Lying in her youthful dreary ritualistic

Night from day differences unearth

Mechanisms retract and recoil

The thought, messy and realistic

Counteraction justly disloyal

Thats just honestly anarchistic

-A lost individual

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THE INTERVIEW

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

So the interview has come and gone.

What. A. Waste.

They felt inclined to inform me that they have recieved over 200 interviews for the position from 36 different states and 3 countries; One of which is Sweden.

FREAKIN SWEDEN!

They said they wont consider it unless I had at least a bachelors degree. Lovely. Suddenly the furniture industry is looking alot better...ugh. Now that my latest dreams have been pulverized, I can get re-grounded and HOLY CRAP I need to hang out with my friends sooo bad!!!! I might not be able to hold out til sunday!!!

-Me

Dial 'S for Sunday / Hiro Nakamura

I am now going through friend withdrawals. I miss you guys =(

So I found out James put in his week notice and his last day is thursday. I wont be there thursday, so Ill probably only work with him tomorrow, if we have work tomorrow... Hes being replaced by trenton so its all good. We shall see how this works out. I hate change. dang.

I have a job interview thursday morning (thus the reason for me not being at work that day) for the position of fingerprint technician! Super stoked about that. I could really use a change of scenery, pace, life, etc... Itll be like an exchange for more of my time, for more money. Im sure itll be good for me. I keep telling myself that, so it should only take me another week or so to believe it hehe.

In other news, WoW has completely screwed up on the updates so none of that for a while til they fix it. Dang, I was under 5% til next lvl.

I wish it was sunday. I just tried Hiro Nakamura fastforward time superpowers complete with the awkward squinting face and it totally did NOT work. Crap.

Listening to Kid CuDi. Its pretty Ok. Nothing spectacular (Like the new 'Radio Dept.' album) but itll do for a light green mood. Friend withdrawal symptoms seem to be getting worse. Sunday sunday sunday sunday sunday

-Me

Another Lonely Night

I had a friend today reveal to a bunch of people that he hasnt succesfully asked out a girl in 4 years. I was too timid to chime in with my statistics. Well, if your reading this guys, its been 3 years and it only happened once. I asked her over the internet, and the date sucked horribly! Its pretty bad when all the experience you have can be summed up in a fortune cookie sized piece of paper.

Yep.

I just...dont want to be one of those guys where people say 'Oh he asks out all the girls who date'. I am trying desperately to not be another average guy who does things the average way.

Dont you hate it when people respond with the 'good christian answer'? You know the one where they are like "Oh dont worry!! God has someone special out there for you! She will come when you least expect it! Infact, I met (soandso) at (somewhere) at (sometime) and it was just like I knew God wanted me to marry that person!!!"

Im so sick of all of that feigned sincerity!! Thats why its so freaking hard for me to connect to church people cause they are so ingenuine at times. Its like; Do you really expect me to believe thats how you really feel about things? Colours dont lie man! Hello! I know people who are so eaten up by life, but when they walk into church, they act like cloud9. A mask pops out of nowhere, super-glued to their face and they wont let anyone get close to the real them. A completely different person emerges! We are all human. We all struggle.

Hmm just clipped like 500 words from what I just wrote because I remember people read this now. Hopefully my point is still there without being all-over-the-place. Anonymity is worth gold my friends, Gold.

-Me

Playlist

Track 1 - The Radio Dept. - Heaven on Fire

So today was pretty sweet! Work was tolerable. No tipss, no delivss, just floor work and yard work. I got threatened by james. Its all good I guess. After that Got to hang out with Alyssa for a while and even though we had no idea what to do or where to go, we still

Track 2 - Radiohead - Sit down. Stand up.

had a great time. Im annoyed that someone stole my mayorship of searstown mall. My one main prized public place! Its war Sarah, whoever you are. Its WAR!

Next up was CnC group. The lesson didnt really stick but

Track 3 - Rilo Kiley - Plane Crash in C

one thing deffinately did. What was Satans job? to reflect Gods glory. After He fell, God created us to take his place and reflect Him. Pretty cool huh? This song is sooooo good. "I have no idea whats goin on lately, and I just wish you would come over and explain things". 

Track 4 - Rilo Kiley - Science Vs. Romance

Ive noticed that a larger portion of my freetime is being sucked into WoW now. Not a significant portion but still. I dont really play games, but the games that I do play, I PLAY. I get absorbed into it. I dont see how people get addicted to WoW at all and I dont percieve that happening to me anytime soon. I guess I havent had a ton of hours at work so ive been climbing levels and running dungeons. Its kinda fun using strategy and teamwork with people you dont know to accomplish a common goal. Kinda like real life except im not a warlock in real life...

Okie doke.

Track 5 - Slowdive - Alison

-Me

Airvent

Vent Post:

• I feel like im swimming upstream now. As if that isnt enough, I have no idea why im doing it. Its almost as if my life wants me to go one way, but im completely ignoring it in favour of the other way. For no reason.

• Im laying on my bed listening to the new Foals album which is pretty ok. I dont get the hype.

• How nice it would be to be pissed off at something right now. I swear im losing my ability to be completely angry/enraged. I dont think I can and its unsettling. Instead of getting angry, I get mega-depressed. I dont mean like acting out and getting in a fist-fight, but just angry. At anything.

• Starbucks is freaking expensive. I cant afford it anymore. 4 bucks for a small drink?

• The list of friends who want to hang out with me is getting small. Rediculously small. Call me up lets see a movie or som'm.

• And when they do want to hang out. They completely own the conversation. It never changes off their problems. Doesnt anyone want to talk about mutual things anymore???? I guess thats why I like seeing movies with people. It gives me a break. (Sorry if I just shot you down)

• I need to stop listening to Foals. Its getting annoying. Switching to... Pinback. Blue screen life is an incredible album. 'Here to my house, in no seconds. Count the footsteps, count the seconds.' Who hasnt been there? So close, but so far...

• Im really hating facebook right now. Its the sameold garbage over and over. I dont even like looking at it. I was thinking about quitting it but its just too integrated into society to go without one.

-Me

Making it, and Faking it.

I scowered the internet, my ipod, and my memory banks for the perfect quote to top off this night. Alas, I found nothing suitable.

 

On a completely seperate note, Ive realized the magnitude of this blog and how many people actually read it (A Horrifying Concept!!!) I had 4 people tell me they read stuff on my blog in the last week (Terrifying!). So things that I would have posted, I will now keep to myself. The gigantic opened steam vent is getting slammed shut. Sitting here, typing this out, im realizing a few key things about it.

1 - From the beginning, I wasnt really able to type anything I wanted. Theres always restrictions you put for fear of that 'one person' reading it. The time you would vent about how much of an idiot your friend was, would be the time they decide to check your blog...

and 2 - I think it was sabotaged( <--just googled for spelling. im so pro) from that link on my facebook. Maybe I wanted it to be sabotaged so I would keep myself from typing those things for that 'one person'. Deep down I want it to be made known, but at the same time... 

So thats it then.

-Me

OwlSmackedFoReal

Ohsnapthisblogjustgotlotsofcoloursplashedonit!!!!! Ilikeit. It'shardtofindaballanceofcolourwithoutblindingyourself. KnowwhatImean?

-Insert Obscure 90's TV Reference Here-

And welcome to another day in the life of me.(Can you start a sentance with an 'And'? Can you start a blog post with the word 'And'? Almost like starting a sentence with 'Therefor, ' or 'In conclusion, '...)

Im really stoked about getting the job interview for fingerprint technician. Booyah! Yeah I know I didnt actually get the job yet but still, Im having high hopes for this one. Poo on you for not being optimistic with me! You know who you are...

...Jerk...

Ive been neglecting listening to some music that recently made it into the 9's on pitchfork and instead listening to random Drum'n'Bass and other odd indy music like 'The Good Life'.

AND NOW!! For the weekly 'Holy -robust expletive- dude you are freaking wierd for liking that!' video.

This one is Aphex Twin! Hes my favorite digital artist and hes been called the mozart of our age. The video is called 'Rubber Johnny' and its super freaky, but at the same time, I cant stop watching it. It deserves the afforementioned award because im on play number 6 now.

Warning: watch at your own risk and for the love of Batman, dont watch this in the dark and/or at night.

Well if you stomached that and havent clicked the red X in a WTF frenzy, then im glad your still with me! What do you think of the movie? Pretty cool right?

-Me

Kindness is Wasted on Evil

There once was a lone scorpion. He became increasingly bored with his drab environment so he convinced himself its time for a change. He settled on a long journey east. Through mountains and jungles the tiny scorpion ran until he found a river. 'What to do? How can I get to the other side?' Thought the scorpion. He waited until he noticed a frog headed the same direction. 'Perfect!' thought the scorpion.

"Hellooo Frog!" called the scorpion across the water, "Would you be so kind as to give me a ride on your back across the river?" 

"Well now, Scorpion! How do I know that if I try to help you, you wont try to kill me?" asked the frog hesitantly. 

"Because," the scorpion replied, "If I try to kill you, then I would die too, for you see I cannot swim!"

Now this seemed to make sense to the frog. But he asked. "What about when I get close to the bank? You could still try to kill me and get back to the shore!"

"This is true," agreed the scorpion, "But then I wouldn't be able to get to the other side of the river!"

"Alright then...how do I know you wont just wait till we get to the other side and THEN kill me?" said the frog.

"Ahh...," crooned the scorpion, "Because you see, once you've taken me to the other side of this river, I will be so grateful for your help, that it would hardly be fair to reward you with death, now would it?!"

So the scorpion got on the frogs back and the frog entered the water and began to swim, being careful as to keep the scorpion above the water. Halfway across the river, the frog suddenly felt a sharp sting in his back and, out of the corner of his eye, saw the scorpion remove his stinger from the frog's back. A deadening numbness began to creep into his limbs.

"You fool!" croaked the frog, "Now we shall both die! Why on earth did you do that?"

The scorpion shrugged. "I could not help myself. I am a scorpion. It is my nature." 

Then they both sank into the muddy waters of the swiftly flowing river.

-Unknown

Cant type today. Shweet.

So im trying to think of what to type so I start typing something, then I realise its complete garbage. Then I delete it. After 5 times, I am NOT deleting this...

Now that the above has been established... I still havent decided on a topic.

Im listening to Jonsi right now, thanks to the lovely Anna:Reborn blog. Its super good stuff. Like sigur ros, but with more direction in the songs. He seems more focused without the rest of the band. But I really didnt want this post to be about music. Then again, I heard this amazing band called 'The Good Life'. Its the lead singer of 'Cursive'. He made a sweet little side band.

Dangit!

Im not at all in a mood where I can write competently. I should probably sign off for the night. I just typo'd 3 times on the word 'off'.

Ugh. I should NOT be left to myself. Ever.

... ;)

-Me

Strike a Chord

He broke his old guitar
He couldn't make it sing
The strings had grown so worn
They made his fingers bleed

These songs are all asleep
They lay dormant inside me
This vacant recitation
I can't resuscitate them

Won't you play a song for me?
Let the words escape your mouth
Scream out what you've lost!
For In song, it will be found!

He broke his old guitar
He smashed it on his bed post
Where he used to dream of lovers
Kissing his forehead Goodmorning

-Me

Captured

Want to capture my attention? Want to know what really distracts me fully?

Music.

Loud Music.

Music that has a design as clear as glass. So clear, I can see the inner workings. I can feel the timing, make a mental map of the progression. Watch as the notes swim along in the melody. Watch as the harmony line flirts with the melody line. So close, and yet, so far. Literally stop breathing air, and start breathing music. Think about it until the point you can feel it and you can let go and see it work. Thats the spot. Where you dont have to think about it anymore. You can just feel it. Where you can experience music with all of your senses.

Then, to think, you can create something similar? You can reach out and make it? Its a truly euphoric feeling.

They say that a glass can only spill what it contains. I have to disagree.

-Me

Dear Future Me...

Dear Future Me...

You probably just went through alot of trouble finding this dusty old blog so congrats on that =)...

To give you your bearings, The date is Wednesday, June 2'nd, 2010. Its 4 days til your bestfriend leaves on an internship.

You live with your parents, you have a curfew, and you havent had a girlfriend before.(ouch. sorry buddy...)

Your 19 years old. Your birthday is in a few months. You havent gotten into college yet. You decided not to go into music as a career, although you would give your right leg to be in a band. Did you ever find a good career choice?

Ive got so many questions

How did my current crush pan out? Do my friends all move on and leave me behind? Does life ever stop sucking? Do mondays get outlawed? Was the mute Cebu succesful in communicating the imminent danger to the other passengers??

Please tell me your sitting back reading this laughing to yourself. Tell me you would love to write back and say not to worry. It all works itself out. You get the girl and you both grow old and live happy together. You have tons of friends who love you for who you are. Tell me it gets easier.

Tell me... I dont end up alone...

Please write back... I need answers.

Love, your younger self.

-Aka-

-Me

Monday on a Tuesday =(

Sweet dang. I thought I just got away with skipping Monday all together. Nope...

Its some kind of black hole vortex stuff happening. Yesterday was monday, but it was a sunday. I thought it was a saturday at first but it was deffinately a sunday. Now today, should be a tuesday, but nope! Its a monday somehow. I wanted it to be a tuesday cause thats like the official start of the week for me.

Garbage

-Me

Decree #26

I decree

All Cough drops(A.K.A Devils Candy)  be outlawed! Bleh... Nasty little smelly things... 

-Me

Axis: Bold as Love

Anger, he cries towering in shiny metalic purple armour.

Queen Jelousy, Envy waites behind Her. Her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground.

Blue and his life giving waters are taken for granted, But quietly understand.

Once happy Turqoise armies lay opposite ready, but wonder why the fight is on.

Red is so confident he flashes his trophies of war, and ribbons of euphoria.

Orange is young, full of daring but very unsteady for the first go 'round.

Yellow in this case is not so mellow. In fact im tryin to say, hes frightened like me.

And all of these emotions keep holding me back from a rainbow like you but im bold as love.

-Jimi Hendrix

I absolutely fell in love with this song 12 seconds ago. I would love to talk colors over coffee with Jimi. Sounds like a great afternoon to me =)

-Me

Really??? Reaaaallyyyy???

My life is like a gigantic irony...

#7 - Hella - Hold Your Horse Is

 Hella - Hold Your Horse Is

Hellaaaa!!!! Awww man. This album is basically me, in my old truck, with the speakers so freaking loud. Rocking. Out.

And its OK if you cant hear for 20 minutes afterwards cause it was freakin awesome!

For those of you who dont know what Math-Rock is, look it up on wikipedia before you listen to any of this or you will dismiss it as obnoxious noise.

 

'The D. Eckan/Biblical Violence' is the first track. Starts off with Nintendo beeps and such as a sort of intro to the album. 40 seconds in your face gets blasted with Zach's intense drumming style. Hella is an american band consisting of Zach Hill(left) on drums, and Spencer Seim(right) on Electric guitar. Yeah. Thats all. These two are masters of thier respective instruments, able to switch between time-signatures like an emo kid changes hairstyles. 

'1-800-GHOST DANCE' is exactly like it sounds. A phone hotline for sweet ghouly dance moves. The beginning is a rave party.

This album taught me that, no matter how rediculous your music is, there will always be a tiny group of people who cant get enough of it.

If you are one of the fortunate few who are reading this and enjoy really technical music that rocks; Then this, my friend, is for you.

Your welcome.

#8 - Tortoise - TNT

Tortoise - TNT

What can I say about Tortoise and their post-jazzy goodness...

This album is pure fun to me. Its a journey spanning several time periods and sounds. The opener song, titled after the album, is a perfect sunny day jam song. Two drummers, in perfect syncopation; so perfect, you would think it was one really good drummer. 'Swung from the gutters' is that mellow, pulsing, poor man, alley jazz. Depressing, but hopefully optimistic. 'Ten day interval' and 'Four day interval' are both bell chime, in slow drone odd time-signature. 'I set my face to the hillside' is the soundtrack to a western film. simple acoustic guitar, shaker, and the sound of children playing in the background. 'The Equator' and 'Suspension bridge', among others are sample driven drum tracks with plenty of pep and content anyone can enjoy.

This album is probably gonna be the least 'serious' album on my list. Its light, fun, and fruity. Always a pleasure to my eardrums. 

Plus, who can resist that awesome drawing??

#9 - Sigur Rós - ( )

Sigur Rós - ( )

Sigur Ros' third full length spanning 8 tracks. Sigur ros is huge on personal subjective interpretation so here is mine. The first 4 tracks are heavily optimistic like the beginning or ' ('. The later 4 tracks are solem and slightly darker and bittersweet like the ' )'. This album is like 2 sides to the same coin. Light and airy, or Heavy and bleak. 

The instrumentation consists of Jonsi on bowed guitar, making full use of everything reverb has to offer. Jonsi's vocals are somewhat consistent with that droney quality in thom yorkes voice. The language Jonsi sings is a sortof skewed gibberish of Icelandic that the band created called 'Hopelandic'. It adds to the overall 'dreamy' quality of the band. 

All the songs in ( ) are untitled. If you were to purchase the CD, you would find the booklet contains blank pages in which you can name the songs and draw a picture as an interpretation.

Im a pretty big sigur ros fan, and I didnt want to clutter my favorite albums list with 'Agaetis Byrjun', and 'Takk...' which are all 3 a great listen if you have the time. Highly recommended. This album, to me, is able to soar above the other music sigur ros has made. Its accessable music, but at the same time, requires a few listens to really soak it all in. Its worth it.

#10 - Music for 18 Musicians

Steve Reich - Music for 18 Musicians

 Steve Reich is an american composer who notably invented the genre known today as 'Minimalist'. Its classified by its repeating and subtly evolving movements. This album has the ability to take you to a place youve never been, and has the endurance to help you find your way around this new world it creates.

Music for 18 Musicians was written back in 1974 and recorded several times since. Basically, its a cycle of 11 chords played by an 'orchestra' of 18 musicians who are all constantly switching between different instruments.

It starts with 'Pulses', The main theme if you will, Followed by Sections I-XI. My favorite being Section IV.

Reich has a way with introducing these dissonant riffs that start with a single strike. Then two strikes in a measure. Then 4. Then before you know it, the instrument is fully integrated into the song and another is right behind it.

One of the things that drew me to loving this album is the 'rush'. The rhythm of which Reich carries his music from the stillness, to the abrupt, to the quiet, to the grandiose. Its something that must be experienced on a personal level.

Top 10 Preface

So Ive been toying around with the idea to do a top 10 of all the music in my life. My favorites out of all the music ive ever listened to. I had hesitations and I dont know why, so im just gonna do it.

Ive chosen to do albums because im a firm believer in albums as a whole cohesive movement of where a band stands at a particular point in time. Ive never liked just picking out songs out of context.

Well I started with my ipod and my hard drive just writting down all my most noticable albums and ended up with 38 total... Then. The cut.

I cut the ones that I just liked alot and ended up with 17

Then I cut it down by asking myself 'Could I live without never having heard this?' Call my shallow or dependent or what have you, but gosh darn it worked.

Alot of my favorite albums I can remember jamming to 'back in the day' got the cut. Its a sad thing to do but Im happy with my overall choice.

Arguably Distant, but Arbitrarily Beautiful

It's Something interesting

It's Something abstract

It's Something empowering

It's Something breathtaking

It's Something you dream of

It's Something that makes your chest ache

It's Something that stills you in silence

It's Something awe inspiring

It's Something you would do anything to obtain

It's Something that racks your nerves

It's Something that keeps you up all night

It's Something you feel

It's Something you know, but cant define

It's Something everyone wants

It's Something everyone needs

It's Something few can find

It's Something you cant let go of if you have it

It's Something arguably distant

It's Something arbitrarily beautiful

-Me

Decree #36

I Decree

(de·cree (di-kree)
n.
1. An authoritative order having the force of law.)

That the week officially starts on a Tuesday. Sunday will always be part of the weekend. What about Monday you say? I refuse to acknowledge its existence as weekday or weekend. Its the Devils day. That will be all...

-Me

One One : One One

• As im typing this im still mulling over the last 'Godspeed you!' song I just heard. Its long and robust and fresh as the day I first heard it 5 years ago.
• Its about 2:00 and im not tired at all.
• I dont want to get on Facebook right now...which is why im here.
• ...
• Next time someone asks "How are you?" Im totally gonna reply with: "Purple! How are you?"
• I totally would go to walmart right now.
• Owl smacked
• Sweet Tea
• I want Sunnys barbecue right now
• Bullet lists are the best way to list random ideas. Its like all the thoughts are in my head swimming around and im plucking them all out one-by-one.
• Coconut
• Passion Pit is playing in orlando soon. So is Silversun Pickups. Everyone wants me to see Passion pit but I actually would rather go see SSP...
• Its
• A
• Trap
• !

I found that whenever I need to think, the pier with the Ankh/7 memorial statue behind the BK on US1 is the best place to be. Its so relaxing. I dont think its so much the sounds of the area, as it is the feeling of constant pressure on your entire body from the breeze. I find that constant pressure increeeedibly soothing.

So today I wished on an 11:11. I used to do that all the time when I was younger, but then I grew up. Now I miss it. I think im gonna start it up again. Its not like im gonna see a shooting star anytime soon... Im thirsty....Brb

Upon going into the kitchen for a drink, I came back and googled 11:11 wish. I found a sortof rulebook that is pretty funny. After all I gotta make sure im doin it right. Heres a bit of it.

First, seeing 11:11 must be spontaneous. One cannot see 11:08 on the clock and then wait for 11:11 to appear. Seeing it on a digital clock seems to have more power than an analog. It works with either a.m. or p.m. but the latter seems to have a bit more strength. The wish must be made right away and can be either verbalized or simply a part of one's inner monologue. If the wish is made on a room in which multiple clocks are in view, one clock must be made the focus of your wish. What you wish for must not only be fairly specific but within the realm of 11:11 possibility. You cannot think "I wish for world peace" and expect it to happen. However, you might wish to receive a financial windfall within the next two months and then have it happen.

Of course, once you spontaneously look at your digital clock and see it is on 11:11 you must immediately look away while you are making your wish. If you look back at it, or any other clock, before it has turned to 11:12 then the wish is blown. Likewise, after looking away and making your wish you cannot count down the seconds. You must wait for what you determine to be a reasonable amount of time before looking back at the same clock to see the time has changed. Compound wishes tend to be a bit problematic. If you were to make a wish to "Meet a beautiful, smart, redhead who is from Michigan and has green eyes and plays the violin" you might get some or one of those things.

My pseudo research in this area continues. I could itemize all of the 11:11 wishes that have come true in the past two years. But in the same way that ill-matched pylon crystals on the 70's TV show "Land of the Lost" could have negative consequences if matched in the wrong combination, I fear that to reveal too much might skew the system. I'm already probably giving away too much. I'm sure I've already jinxed myself. But I'm not superstitious. I promise. Really.

Best Wishes-

-Me