Worst song of 2011

Worst song of the year goes to

Jessie J!!!!

for her masterwork

Price Tag (feat B.O.B.)

What an aweful song. Lyrics include 'When the truth comes second, just stop for a second and smile'. Yeah smiling just makes all the worlds problems better... If your gonna sing a song about world betterment, copy John Mayer or heck, even Lennon did a good job. So many gimmicks here I dont even want to go into it. I pitty whoever takes financial advice out the little nuggets in this song. After all, 'We just wanna make the world dance, forget about the pricetag'. B.o.b.'s uninspired rap was sooo rediculous. In almost parodical fashion, he stops the song and says bring the beat back. Wow I havent heard that one before... The mix is out of wack like the sound engineer had a gun to his head. I feel bad listening to it right now. A headache is developing just to write this. I think im gonna throw up. Luckily Wiz Khalifa is in the related videos so I dont actually die.

-me

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I suck

-Well... I suck. Oh I might as well type that in the title bar real quick since it seems to fit the occasion so nicely...

-There. Now I dont have to worry about a title.

-Now to the reasons for this.

-Numbah 1. My brain is retarted! It wont let me sleep. Less than 5 hours a night for the past 4 days. Its been giving me bad driving directions and complicating simple thoughts. Its been plastering 1 thing on my mind continuously against my will! (Ill give you one guess...) It also makes me second guess things alot. It makes me randomly jealous and I read too far into things that are just stupid for me to go into. Im fed up with my brain in general. Tradesies anyone?

-Numbah 2. Ive been feeling very lonely lately...

-Completely(possibly) unrelated: My extended family will be arriving any minute now. yaaay. (<-sarcasm... /cry) So Im going to be incognito as much as possible the next week. I dont want them to see me at all. Im aiming for 100% avoidance. Might be difficult considering I have 3 dollars to get me through to friday and im going to need food and a place to sleep(notsleep). This is going to be the week from hell if Im not able to sleep soon.

-Numbah 3. I really love music, but sometimes I absolutely hate that I love it so much. It makes me unable to enjoy what everyone sans me enjoys. I cant get thrills from most rock music. I head bang to rhythms with odd timesignatures. I am teh lame. Most people listen to bands noones ever heard of because they derive some sort of pleasure from being elitist morons. I loathe this. Its like a disease with no cure. I cant enjoy breaking benjamin, or other such rock bands and I have a really hard time enjoying skillet(Honestly you have no idea how bad I want to love them). It absolutely erks me to death that I cant just listen and bob my head and be happy. nope. i gotta be lame and listen to music that most people cant get through a single song because somehow, my ears find that enjoyable.

-The hardest part of the above is that I cant blame anyone. Who do you blame for your taste in things? God? Yourself? Your parents? Deffinately not parents... I guess me then. Or half God, half me. I dont really know... I guess God could have made me a country music nut or something...

-That feels good to get off my chest.

-Fingers crossed for sleep. Ive been psyching myself up for sleep and something else all day. 'Something else' didnt happen so lets see how sleep goes.

-Me

confused.

-dont know what to write. everything seems ok.

-no. scratch that. hmmmmm...

-well. alot of things are great. a few things arent...

-i really wish i was making more money. to do that, you need a job that actually pays. you need a degree. you need to know people. you need a skill. i currently have none of these things but im trying to make it a priority.

-im toying with the idea of dropping out of school. at least dropping my classes while i can still get out relatively cheap. i dont want this degree. like at all. i dont want any degree at all but man alive i want a good paying job. you see my predicament here? the money making jobs are the ones where the degrees/jobs suck. the ones i actually want to do, dont pay. but then again life sucks. you dont get to have your cake and eat it too. not in life. you gotta do what you dont want to do.

-but what is progress for the sake of progress? its not a step forward. specially if i end up in debt because of it. then instead of a step sideways, its more of a step backwards. why didnt god give me a natural inclination for something like molecular biology or something that would put food on the table. not music. music is a dime a dozen. its cheap. why didnt i get something useful. an inclination towards medical would even be cool. but nope. i dont want anything to do with it. medical? no. engineering? nope. business? negative. i got nothin.

-I would so much rather do a job im happy with that doesnt pay much but that is sooooo frowned upon. your supposed to do a job you hate that breaks your back and come home to a beautiful women who massages you. at least thats what everyone does. alyssas parents are extremely financially driven.

-it would make perfect sense. the one thing i dont care about is the one thing they care about most. i can give her anything she wants. i will always love her and be there for her but that doesnt matter. she lives in a nice house and has a nice car. who needs love. she has her medical expenses covered.

-financial peace? i would rather be in debt up to my eyes and be in love.

-i wasnt raised like you. ends barely met. barely. love was emphasized. not something thats backburner to money. how could you possibly put money in front of love. it does not make sense. read, does not compute. read, blows my mind. i will never understand it.

-but if thats how it is. then where does that leave me? am i forced to get a crap job and just man up and deal with it? can i do something i love instead? is there middle ground?

-im really confused. i dont want to be stuck in date mode forever. im so beyond ready to get married. i want life to freakin happen already. i just wish i could figure out what to do... im gonna talk to you tomorrow about this. so please understand if i ask you to skip dancing so we can figure some of this out. i need life to change drasticaly and im willing to do whatever it takes. it just needs to be done. im tired of beating around the bush. i want a solid plan where i can say for absolute certain that i can have a good paying job and be financialy stable within this set amount of time. i want to be able to look you in the eyes and feel like im honestly doing everything i can to make this happen for us. right now though, i cant say that. you deserve more.

-me

Insomnia rant...-sigh-

Well the gf is sick and i would probably die of boredom and loneliness if it werent for dan... And girls... Yeah the band 'girls' just put out a reaaaally great new album of cheesy oldy sounding love songs that sound soooo great! Opening track sounds like a 50s diner dance number complete with the cast of grease! Its pretty intense. Also KiD CuDi has a new album out called... get this. ready?

Mr Rager

Wooooow thats a terrible name for an album. What is that like mr roger? anyway. Its super emo. Its the linkin park of rap music. I havent listened to it all the way through yet but im diggin the song 'maniac' if not just for the sample of one of my fav girl singer/songwritters 'St Vincent'. It gets points off for having mary j blidge in 2 different songs. ew. 

Also remind me to get the new Radio Dept album... And the new deerhunter album... Im reluctant to get them and have no motivation to do so because both of thier last albums were so amazing and I dont want to be dissapointed... Specially radio dept. Their last album is one of my favorite albums ever with 'heavens on fire' and 'domestic scene'...

If your wondering, when I cant sleep, I go to music. Thats why I know a trillion and one bands and have very picky taste in music. Insomnia rears up every once in a while and bam! my music library triples lol... i hate insomnia.... Its like 4 in the freakin morning... Im tired but my brain is like camptown freakin races right now. I cant seem to get my brain to relax. Im hoping that by typing this up, itll empty out my brain so i can sleep. Im praying for you alyssa! I hope you get better soon so we can hang out! Me, henry, lily and kila miss you!!! They didnt have a prayer request thing tonight since we did a party but I told a few people you were sick so you would get prayed for by more people! More people praying is supposed to make you better faster I think... Im not sure... Maybe not. Depends on the people praying maybe? Oh wait! Depends on God actually. Yep. Anyways! I was wanting to know if you wanted me to drive over my jacket so you can keep warm! :) Im also well aware of the fact that I will never get it back but I can always borrow one of jinjes or something. I dont think your parents will care if you are wearing a jacket twice as big as you lol so let me know tomorrow when you wake up and I will totally drive it over! I got it washed and dryed and im gonna wear it tomorrow to smell it up :) Ok goodnight now. And if you read that, and your name isnt alyssa baker, you have waaaaay too much free time. Alyssa gets special treatment because she is sick and sick people have free time. Like phil when he watched all 6 seasons of lost lol wow i gotta stop typing...

-Me

Zzzzt! A rappa bug zappa...

Well this is it. Im signing up for college for the....5th time??? I cant remember...

My cousin Julia, the 'decidedly indecisive' one as I call her, just made her choice on college and is attending spring classes next year at the 'Le Cordon Bleu'. So if she can do it, I can do it right? Granted, its not what I really want to do or anything. Its more of a stepping stone.... In a loooong trail of stepping stones hovering over the grand canyon...

Yeah im thrilled... really... I do, however, like the prospect of not doing nothing. I mean I have a job, which is more than most people, but its a sucky lousy barely-get-your-bills-payed job. I want moneys. They say money doesnt mean happiness, but I think sometimes it does.... Money means stability. Stability means less stress which is sortof like happiness right? Also financial stability means making 'it' official, which is -immeeeeensly- important to me right now despite my obvious lack of motivation to move forward... (heart-on-sleeve moment here...)

So there you have it. Ive filled out all the paperwork for bcc. Ill be taking some classes on web design and web media. Hopefully after that, Ill pickup 2 or 3 or however many websites and make some cash. The thing about websites, is they require monthly payments to keep running...

...Epic evil grin*...

Which in turn, means monthly payments to moi! So its like monthly payments of hefty amounts comming in from 3 or 4 sources. It could work out quite well for me :)

*fingers crossed*

So here we are in November which incidently reminds of the Gorillaz song

'Something has started today 
Where did it go? Why you want it to be?
Well you know November has come
And it's gone away'

Im in no mood for november to stay. Im at a weird point where im like wanting to skip ahead in life to get to the good stuff. God is teaching me to stop wanting to skip ahead and keep my head out of the clouds. Be content with my current level of happiness, and stop trying to cheat on His plans for me. Its all too easy(darth vader quote!) to steal His plan for you early, but it takes focus and determination to have that patience to stake it out. In the long run, you will be happier. Well, at least thats what I hear... Just focus on the now. God will focus on the later. After all, the now is pretty amazing right?

-Me

Tuesday for dummies/Tuesday soup for the soul/Tuesday the walkthrough

Well now, The National, and Owen Pallet, David Bazan, Amberlin, and the Crash Kings are all comming to Orlando within the next month or so. Man-oh-man. Bazan is the singer of Pedro the lion who split to do his own thing. Sounds like a pretty sweet show.

Listening to music is hard now without working headphones. See if you can imagine this: The right ear muff broke off of the band that goes over the head. So I have the band on for the left ear and tucked the right ear into the band to hold it to my head. It falls off every few minutes or if I move suddenly. Is it worth it? Absolutely!

Stuff Ive been listening to recently:

1- Grits. Anything I can find on youtube.

2- Scott Pilgrim vs. The World OST (Sex Bob-omb ftw)

3- The Good Life - Novena on a Nocturn. Currently what im listening to while typing this. Its good stuff.

4- TI - Paper Trails. Yup. Rap yall.

5- Foo Fighters. Anything by them really. Im drinking it all in. Really liking that song 'This is a Call'. Its so raw-garage-band awesomeness.

(WARNING ELABORATE CRITIC GARBAGE AHEAD) I really feel that the artist has used this medium to convey man's inhumanity to man in a world ruled by emotion, where the media imposes thier unrealistic image of perfection upon us in a world that is imperfect, and the blackness towards the end of the piece represents that which surrounds us from a socia-economic standpoint. It's a very surreal landscape that has been painted before us.

(OK YOUR GOOD)Like Janes Addiction-ish. You know?

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(I dont normally advise that my readers stop reading my blog, but stop. Stop reading now. I dont claim responsability for the following)

Now is the part where I clear my head. But instead of deleting it like I do so people dont think im a nut job, im gonna leave the... ummm... 'unclassified' parts of it. Its like stream-of-consciousness right now. For your convenience(and for the lulz), I will now mark the spots where I deleted mass amounts of text with a '$'. Good'ay.

So yep lifes good. Really good. I got this one super awesome thing going with this person that I like and its going great. Im super happy.$ Im not sure whats going to happen in the future, but im excited and thrilled with whats happening now. Also that texting convo was the most amazing thing ever!$ I told myself I wouldnt blog about it til its a legit thing but whatevs. I feel like it, and im pretty sure I know everyone who reads my blog, so there. Its been taken down off facebook for a while now so yeah. So where was I... Oh yeah- Happy! I am that. Alot of that. Everything just keeps comming faster than I can type it. Did you see my facebook status about bread and red lobster? It got jacked by my mom and other people talking about bad breath. How lame. Topic jacking should be made illegal somehow. Like an elite group of trollers who exact righteous judgment on the topic changers. Like Punisher! but an online version... Nevermind thats stupid... Go see Scott Pilgrim if you havent seen it yet. Poor tuna. He was totally a 5th wheel(ish...$) today. Sarah was like -Call up hanah and get her out here! You can flirt a little and getting a date isnt that hard- and stuff and tuna was like -Whatever!!! But really though, its hard for some people. Its the nerves and the 'what ifs' that kill you.$ Then we waited for alyssa to get there and $... And then burger king happened, then dan and sarah ditched us and we dropped off tuna and then me so I could take jinje to blockbuster before 10 but mom and dad were at the party so we couldnt go because I dont have gas in my car. Then I was like -laaaaame- because I left church earlier than I wanted and didnt get to talk much. And now im home having watched a few shows on tv and tried to sleep... sleep... sleep sounds good... Ok thats my thoughts...Now for the editting. This oughta be good... And, wow, there goes half the page. To answer your obvious question, Im not crazy. Just tired, overwound, a bit uncensored, and losing count of my dang sheep. You win a buck-thirty-seven in coins if you read all that up there.

-Me

P.S.- ...zzzzzZZZZZZZ....

An Agony in Eight Fits

Well I am now 100% convinced that Lewis Carroll is the greatest writter in all of history. I love his poetry. 'Walrus and the Carpenter' is fantastic, and I just read all of 'The hunting of the Snark'. What an amazing story! I would love to try my hand at absurd poetry but I would probably suck at it. I deffinately urge you to read the above mentioned. What a mind that man must have had to think up these stories. The inspiration for 'Snark' came with the line 'For the Snark was a Boojum, you see.'

I knew not what it meant, then: I know not what it means, now; but I wrote it down: and, sometime afterwards, the rest of the stanza occurred to me, that being its last line: and so by degrees, at odd moments during the next year or two, the rest of the poem pieced itself together, that being its last stanza.

In the midst of the word he was trying to say
In the midst of his laughter and glee
He had softly and suddenly vanished away
For the Snark was a Boojum, you see.

I bet you have no idea what any of that means out of context  but basically, the baker, upon catching a snark... Oh nevermind. Its too absurd to explain out of context. 

-Read it here- legit man.

-Me

One One : One One

• As im typing this im still mulling over the last 'Godspeed you!' song I just heard. Its long and robust and fresh as the day I first heard it 5 years ago.
• Its about 2:00 and im not tired at all.
• I dont want to get on Facebook right now...which is why im here.
• ...
• Next time someone asks "How are you?" Im totally gonna reply with: "Purple! How are you?"
• I totally would go to walmart right now.
• Owl smacked
• Sweet Tea
• I want Sunnys barbecue right now
• Bullet lists are the best way to list random ideas. Its like all the thoughts are in my head swimming around and im plucking them all out one-by-one.
• Coconut
• Passion Pit is playing in orlando soon. So is Silversun Pickups. Everyone wants me to see Passion pit but I actually would rather go see SSP...
• Its
• A
• Trap
• !

I found that whenever I need to think, the pier with the Ankh/7 memorial statue behind the BK on US1 is the best place to be. Its so relaxing. I dont think its so much the sounds of the area, as it is the feeling of constant pressure on your entire body from the breeze. I find that constant pressure increeeedibly soothing.

So today I wished on an 11:11. I used to do that all the time when I was younger, but then I grew up. Now I miss it. I think im gonna start it up again. Its not like im gonna see a shooting star anytime soon... Im thirsty....Brb

Upon going into the kitchen for a drink, I came back and googled 11:11 wish. I found a sortof rulebook that is pretty funny. After all I gotta make sure im doin it right. Heres a bit of it.

First, seeing 11:11 must be spontaneous. One cannot see 11:08 on the clock and then wait for 11:11 to appear. Seeing it on a digital clock seems to have more power than an analog. It works with either a.m. or p.m. but the latter seems to have a bit more strength. The wish must be made right away and can be either verbalized or simply a part of one's inner monologue. If the wish is made on a room in which multiple clocks are in view, one clock must be made the focus of your wish. What you wish for must not only be fairly specific but within the realm of 11:11 possibility. You cannot think "I wish for world peace" and expect it to happen. However, you might wish to receive a financial windfall within the next two months and then have it happen.

Of course, once you spontaneously look at your digital clock and see it is on 11:11 you must immediately look away while you are making your wish. If you look back at it, or any other clock, before it has turned to 11:12 then the wish is blown. Likewise, after looking away and making your wish you cannot count down the seconds. You must wait for what you determine to be a reasonable amount of time before looking back at the same clock to see the time has changed. Compound wishes tend to be a bit problematic. If you were to make a wish to "Meet a beautiful, smart, redhead who is from Michigan and has green eyes and plays the violin" you might get some or one of those things.

My pseudo research in this area continues. I could itemize all of the 11:11 wishes that have come true in the past two years. But in the same way that ill-matched pylon crystals on the 70's TV show "Land of the Lost" could have negative consequences if matched in the wrong combination, I fear that to reveal too much might skew the system. I'm already probably giving away too much. I'm sure I've already jinxed myself. But I'm not superstitious. I promise. Really.

Best Wishes-

-Me

I hate monday

Why is my life just a series of unobtainable crushes? Why do girls screw around with sleazy guys and the good guys are left alone to be the 'guy diary'?!?

In the words of George Costanza, 'Life is killing me. Its making me more synical, jerry! More Jaded!!'

Except if you know me, you know I really cant get synical or jaded... Maybe jaded. A little bit.

But alas, my life is at a monday. Monday is the itch on your back you cant get rid of. Im gonna buy a harmonica so I can accurately play 'The blues...' for mondays.

Dear God, I need extra help today...        ...Please?...Hello?....

-Me

blahblahblah!!

So Blah blah blahblahblah blah and blah blah and blah with blahblahblah happened to blah. It was all blah. And then blahblahblahblahblahblahblah. Where blah met blah and blahblahblah. Which was fine until blahblahblah and blahblahblah with blahblah behind blahblahblahs back. So blahblahblah decided to blahblah to the cops blahblahblahblah etc...blahblah. Now life is blahblahblah because blahblahblah and blahblahblah did blahblahblah to blahblahblahs hairdresser.

blahblahblah

Is life ever like this to anyone else? Feels like it to me...

blah

-Me

(P.S. How is today Orange??? No. Way.)...(Sorry Heather, Not even remotely)

My life as of today.

That made my day haha. So anyway.

Tonight I went to ashkelon and did a little jam session with one of KYou's songs he wrote. It was pretty awesome.
Work lately has been brutal with this heat and early hours. Bleh. And thats what I get to look forward to for tomorrow.

LOST!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY FRIKIN CRAP. I didnt see any of that comming! Sun and Jin! and The Sub! and Kate! and Sayid! and the fake locke!! and the... ok im done. its getting intensly good.

Anxiously awaiting new 0day comics for like 2 weeks ago...The Guild #2, Incorruptable #5, Irredeemable #13, Devil #5 and more. Takin forevs with those scans guys... Giddyup!

This is the most random post ever created. Sorry for all the ADD or whatevs but im typing what comes to my mind as it comes to my mind. Speaking of which, guess what I had today? A Bona-Fide Choco-Taco. Its legit man. I havent had one since the turn of the century...

I really need to stop typing. Sorry guys.

=)

-Me

PS I promise I dont have ADD or anything. Just cluttered up in the brain today.

Yay..........=(

Arggghhhh Im totally off my game this week... Mainly because the colors are changing too much. DSwe is getting oranger instead of his usual tide of bright yellow. Must have something to do with SFer. On the more productive side, I got to know her better and see she has a lovely shade of Gold like wheat, which compliments DSwe nicely... I love it when people who are dating, have good color schemes.
JGil is turning darker crimson which likely means he is annoying me. CPow is getting EVEN BRIGHTER shade of Lime green. It hurts my minds eye to think about it... ABak on the other hand is losing her color. Went from an aqua/green mix to like a clear gummybear. Dont ask me to explain that one either. Meh.

So blogpeeeps whatup. I. Am. Efn. Borreeedd.
Also if you dont know what any of that means you can completely ignore it, or go to:


Tomorrow better be frikkin awesome. Goin to frikkin post-yoyo club. =p

If only I could fastforward tonight instead of typing about things...
Like a time machine...
Or like a remote that lets me fastforward...
Like that movie with adam sandler...
What was it called again...
...
...
Click...
Yeah thats the one...
I wish a magical black guy could give me a magic remote...
=(...
-Me...

Risks

Why the hell dont I take risks?? Ughhh..... What is wrong with me?? Theres this thing I want to do but im afraid of the outcome. It could be the best thing to ever happen, or it could fall to pieces and the world will implode in on itself... End of life as I know it. Maybe not that severe but something will definately get screwed the f up. Ugh.
FML FML Fml FMLFMLFMFLFMLFMLFMFLMFLMFLFMLFmFLMFFLMMFLFMLMFLMFMFLFMLFMLFLFLFLLLLLFMLMFLMFLMLLm

Dont you hate it when you are arguing with yourself over an important decision. You imagin what it would be like on the good side and all the amazing things that would happen, but then.. You realize that none of those things have actually happened... Then your train of thought moves to, 'Well why havent I just done it already???', and that takes you full circle back to RISK TAKING!

I hate it all.

Very, Very, Very much.




Yeah im done.




-Me